• My grandma never defends me. It’s like when I have a problem or an issue that I’m dealing with, it’s always my fault. Or it’s completely insignificant because it has nothing to do with her specifically. And when it does have something to do with her, it’s “ridiculous that I feel that way”.
• My sister constantly picks her friends over me. I’m always the back-up plan when she has no one to talk to or hang out with.
• My grandpa always gives me dirty looks when I try to talk to them about my problems, or things that bother me. My problems are never taken seriously.
• Everyone is always pissed off at me all the time. This, even if I’m in a good mood, just makes me feel as worthless as I ever have felt. Nothing is ever going to change, either. It’s always going to be this way.
• My grandma doesn’t even like having me around. She resents that I’m here, and she always is jealous of any attention that I get from my grandma or really anyone that is around, so she does her best to make sure that I don’t get that attention, or that the attention that I do get is negative and makes me feel bad.
• They all say bad things about me when I’m not around, when they think I’m not around, or when they think that I can’t hear what they’re saying. But I’m not stupid. I know what they’re saying, and I know what they think and what they think they know about me. But they have no idea. Because they don’t care to know what’s really going on with me.
• My maternal grandmother never listens to anything that I say. The TV is always more important to her, whether it be a game that she’s playing that she could play any time, or she’s watching a show that she has recorded and could either pause, or watch at another time. Those things will always be there, but I won’t.
• My cousins and one of my mom's sisters only treat me like I matter if they want me to do something for them, or if they think that I’ll let them use something of mine that they wouldn’t be able to use if they were treating me the way that they always do.
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